There are many diseases in this world some are curable other are not . I heard this term maladaptive daydreaming first time when I searched my symptoms on internet . All my childhood was traumatic ,my parents got separated then my mother died , I was lonely and was the youngest child , couldn't bear my mother's loss. I was the sensitive child in my family.I got lonely I stopped talking to people because whenever I talked to someone they started talking about my mother and father , I was embarrassed of the separation I ran immediately. writing was the only friend of mine that time , I was shy and sebsitive child so I never attempt to make new friends in the result I got more lonely I hide in my room all the time , sometimes all the day and night as a result it affected me psychologically . Out of boredoom and escaped from the reality I made up stories in my mind that had nothing to do with reality . The stories were like I am living with my mom and dad , I am moving out to new place with my family like all the stuff which was not a reality I start thinking of it . It gave me a bit escape and peace and slowly and gradually it became my habit . It went on for years like this. affected me in every possible way. It became difficult for me to even pay attention to a single task for a long time . My attention get diverted quickly , I can't think properly I have serious eating issues , I eat alot because I don't pay attention to any thing properly so I don't remember how much I eat , it became a serious issue in my life when I got 16, 17. When people start noticing issues in my behvaoir as a child it was ignorable but now people watched me talking to my self for hours and hours uninteruupeted saw me moving back and forth unintentionally for hours sometimes the whole day and night , not giving proper attention to any thing, feeling lethargic , not performing task properly , try to hide in the room , i got poor grades in academics I had zero interest in anything except this daydreaming .then one day I visited a doctor but it was a miserable idea because she was not a good help to me .
Monday 19 September 2022
Sunday 18 September 2022
Maladaptive Day Dreaming mdd
My mdd story ....
The background of mdd is already discussed in the past post. Today I will share my experience of being mdd for last a decade .I would say I don't know when I started this habit or when it started eat me i don't realize that time how bad it turns out to be . I lost my mother at very young age , parents were separated before, mother died I was the youngest child so there was no emotional support or any kind of support to me that time . I was bullied for being skinny people sympathized with me whenever I went out with family so my childhood was terrible in every sense . I didn't disclose my pain that time but it came out in other ways like mdd disorder , at the age of 12 or 13th I started realizing that I had some issue but I shared it with no one one day I searched this symptoms and came to know that it's a disorder that time there was no rich literature available online I had couple of sessions with doctor but it was all failed . I there were no medications or treatment available so after couple of sessions my doctor gave me some antidepressants and it was of no use as nothing changed, I read in a community post that a girl tried writing her symptoms and daydreaming stories it really helped her in coming out of it but it didnt work in my case.
It require a whole lot time plus sweat and pain to write something on paper. It is easy to think about something but when a minute you decide to put those ideas on paper it is a real game . This was a difficulty for me . I can't write that time . I was going through severe mental issues , dealing with depression , anxiety , anger issues and ocd. I was unable to write a letter on paper . I failed that time and left things on time . Still I am facing issues but I am in peace with myself now.
One of the golden advise I will give to my readers are please be kind to yourself either you are going through any issue in your life , be kind and be positive and If there is some mental issue you are facing accept it and treat yourself gently
For instance some one have body ache and fever he / she treats it accordingly but for that first accept you are sick and there is no shame in it secondly Be kind to yourself . It will give mental peace which is itself a therapy..
Random writing
It's been almost 5 years when i wrote my last and first blog I am an avid reader but please pardon my grammar and English . It's not my native language . I always tried my best to write but there was some hurdle expressing my views and ideas on paper. I lacked everytime . The autumn had arrived. This time after searching endlessly about how to write a blog free , blogger .com came infront of me I immediately clicked on the link and now I remember this was my blog . I may not be the creative writer but I love penning down my ideas. From now onwards I am going to publish things which makes me happy and ideas I want to discuss. And everyone who want to take part in can add there ideas too .
Friday 27 July 2018
Maladaptive daydreaming is a disorder in which a person goes in fantasy and never want to leave . He thinks that whatever the fantasy Is going on in his mind that is real life or it is a fact . But fact is that person doesn’t realize that he is drowning in this dreaming world.I thought that nightmares are much better and good as compared to these never accomplished dreams.Maladaptive daydreaming is although not an official recognized disease like anxiety disorder,bipolar disorder ,eating disorder and many more. But still there are thousands in of people in the world who are talking on different forums about the same symptoms . That is how we know that it is a kind of disorder .We cannot take it light.If it doesn’t cure or stop it will go on extreme point.On that stage these people complains about being disconnected from the world. So this is not normal in any sense.Probably every 1 person from 4 is experiencing mdd.However he doesn’t know that .People take it normal but it goes extremely bad sometimes.It is a kind of addiction like smoke, drug and porn addiction etc.Now I am going to talk about my condition when I go in mdd.Firstly I feel really good to keep my self busy in mdd because whenever I am dreaming i feel really happy . Whatever I want to get in my real life I got that in dreaming.I find myself really please.I keep myself locked in room if I am dreaming because while dreaming I even start talking so it could be embarrassing if somebody caught me in it.I really like my company . I love to live alone .Some are the all time mdd triggers that put us in it that is music.The possible treatments to overcome mdd is go for a psychiatrists regularly ,do meditation,pray regularly, busy yourself in healthy activities ,exercise and walk regularly exercise helps to improve brain working ,eat healthy,drink less , sleep average, don’t be a night owl. Give your time to your family. Increase your social circle meet them often .Go on a trip, enjoy your life make goals in life ,always try to be passionate enough to avoid mental illness. Repeat it again !
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